Part 2

theres 1 more thing i wanna blog about.. i may nvr have the mood 2 do this again so just bare wif me.. as u all noe ppl change as the grow older.. sum 4 the better sum 4 the worse.. i dont think i noe a person hu is still the same as they were 2-3 years ago.. how fast things changed..

when i was younger i was arrogant.. seriously.. i would alwayz tell every1 that im the best as i tot in my mind that i was.. i didnt handle losing 2 well.. n tried hard 2 fit in wif eveybody.. i wouldnt say i was a misfit bt rather wanted 2 b frenz wif every1 outside my circle of frenz.. i dont think many ppl remember me being like that as i met u all quite recently..

anywayz.. im still partly the same bt different in a way.. mayb as u grow older ur more mature n all the things u did in the past all seem so foolish.. i would laugh just thinking bout sum of the things i did..

well there is actually 1 more thing i need 2 let out bt that will b another day..

Things Happen 4 a Reason

it was midnite.. me n azman was sitting at anggerik usj 2 after watching district 9(which was wicked btw).. finishing up a box of cigs n just having a plain convo.. we came up 2 the topic of how we 1st met.. after sum time we realised there was a series of coincidences that led 2 him being my best man..

i was just bak after 2 n 1/2 years living in saudi arabia.. the timing wasnt great as i resumed schooling towards the end of primary 5.. wif UPSR looming the following year i agreed 2 join a tuition centre wif my couz.. we were just mere classmates n the centre closed at the end of the year.. we didnt meet at all 4 more than a year n fb didnt exist at the time (just had 2 put that in =).. in form 1 my dad enrolled me in a local football league.. during the selection we were standing in line next 2 each other n vaguely remembered 1 another.. ironically we ended being in the same team..

as the league drew towards an end.. his mom enrolled him at Kancil (tuition centre were i was at).. again we ended up being classmates.. by then we were tight.. hahahaa.. we would end up staying at the same centre till the end of form 5..

we then realise that our parents decision influenced whether or nt we would hav met in the 1st place.. how things would have changed if our parents decided nt 2 make the same decisions.. so by that time it was 1 am wif an empty box of cigs n the need 2 get home 4 i hav class n he has work the next morning.. we hav met frequently recently as i hav a car bt we would meet outside tuition mayb once every 3 months..

n we decided long ago that we will b each others best man at our weddings..

Sem 2 in Brief

its been a while since my last post.. haha.. havent been thinking bout blogging 4 a while.. anywayz as usual there has been many things that have changed..

it took me around 7 months 2 get my license bt it was worth the wait.. the process is so time consuming that i nvr actually wanted it till the end of the 1st sem.. bt since then my life has been a lot easier.. having had a car waiting on the sidelines i quickly took my chance n started 2 do things that i could nt without a driver :) life has been much better..

sem 2 has been so-n-so.. the timetable is ok as well.. though having classes till 6 does suck.. since i drive i think i've oni stayed till 6 less than 5 times.. seriously nt a fan of the traffic.. the new stuff we learn r fine n i enjoy some of the topics.. having skipped quite a few classes has left me behind sumwat bt i wont worry much bout that..

its this time of year again i guess.. i hav been feeling very insecure lately.. bout many things in life.. there is so many things i need 2 do 4 the better bt its hard 2 change being me.. being so undecisive on wat i want in life doesnt help much.. n endlessly slacking on things which r important..

results r out on monday so keeping my fingers crossed =D

A Recap of the Holzzz..

its been nearly 2 weeks since the start of the holidayz n its been ok lah.. sleeping at 4 n waking up at 2 has been a daily routine 4 me.. i've manage 2 catch up on a few shows n movies i missed while being in college since i hav so much free time.. i did manage 2 go out once or twice 2 shop n get some fresh air..

the main goal this holidayz was 2 finally get my driving license.. my test is set on the 25th of june so im just waiting 4 that day.. plus 25th is draft nite so i really cant wait..

well since that leaves me only a week left b4 the start of college the chances of me goin bak 2 sarawak is zero... owh well i will just go bak another time =D

the other day i was pondering bout my primary dayz in miri.. i went 2 an islamic skool 4 oni 2 years b4 heading 4 saudi.. since i left i hav been bak once n i hav practically lost contact wif every1.. so in other words theres no point looking 4 them as i cant even remember most of their names.. anywayz.. while i was at metro doin my required hours i decided 2 open fb while waiting 4 my sis.. so there was a fren request n a message.. in the message she states that she was looking 4 a guy wif my name hu used 2 b in the same skool during std 1 n 2.. she also states that that guy left 4 saudi.. well since i fit the bill i replyed that im the person that she was lookinf 4.. i still had no clue hu she was bt was kinda impressed she could find me after all these years.. (fb rocks btw).. when she mentioned her full name i instantly remembered hu she was n nearly every1 else in my class.. its way freaky.. seriously.. she was the girl hu sat next 2 me in class n i vaguely can picture how evry1 looked like bak then.. wow rite.. there was like a sense of nostalgia while the sun was setting me sitting at the porch at metro staring at red kancils doin there rounds while replying messages on fb.. mayb it was all bcos i attracted it (loa ppl).. that seriously made my holiday..

im so pissed at u ppl.. seriously!!

Holidayz...

as usual the holidayz r boring n so theres nth thats blog worthy lately..

Its 2 hard 2 let go

i have a problem wif letting go.. im alwayz happy wif wat i hav n im content if things will 4eva stay the same.. mayb im just at a happy point in my life n i just dont wanna move on.. this past 6 months hav been awesome.. i wish it will stay the same..

bt then, its the end of a sem.. things will definately change.. wif new classmates n new timetables.. new lecturers n new subjects.. my team is nt 1 anymore.. sum hav moved on as they think they're 2 gud 4 us.. we all made a promise that the team was more important than anithin else.. n u guyz act like its just nothin.. bullshit man!! n i just cant let sum1 go.. even though i've said it so often that im over her bt im nt.. even though wat u've done really ruined a part of me.. n u noe i 4gave u 4 that n i can nvr say no 2 u.. mayb im a fool bt there r just things that i want 4 it 2 stay the same.. owh well.. 4 now i hav 2 make sure i get through the last hurdle n prepare 4 the next step..

' Sumtimes the person u love most is the hardest person 4 u 2 show ur love'

Neglecting

as u may notice i havent updating my dear blog 4 quite some time.. well its just that there isnt much 2 blog about.. just been bumming around the hse as i seldom go 4 classes n now is study break.. so in other work i havent done productive work 4 over a month..

well 2 all my group 2 frenz its the end of the beginning.. i still cant believe its been around 6 months since we all 1st met.. wow!! 2 c how much we noe each other n all the stuff that has happened has made me wonder that mayb destiny brought all of us 2 end up taking CAT n enroll in the same class.. n i have imagined many times if i had decided 2 do a-levels in taylors would things b the same wif ppl over there.. bt rite now 2 me i hav made the right choice n i wont change my mind bout that :D wow!! again..

enough wif the sappy-ness.. last nite was the 1st time i met up wif azman 4 a few months.. strangely were like the best of frenz bt we only meet a handful times a year.. mayb being far away from each other makes everytime we meet more interesting since we hav more 2 tok bout.. anywayz as usual we went 4 steaks at san francisco steakhse.. n were there 4 a few hrs just having a smoke n cheesecake :) since we left aroung 10.30 we felt it was kinda early 2 call it a nite.. so i randomly suggested we go 2 azim's hse 4 some foosball, pool n ps3 sessions.. so gave him a call n he said ok so we were off 2 ara damansara.. we were there till 1.30 as we called it a nite as azman has work the next day..

"we never noe wat the future holds, so sit back, relax n just watch as it unfolds"..
CHAIO ppl!!