A Disappearance Act

I dont know why but I tend to do this all the time. I just tend to disappear to people and when they see me they tell me that they haven't seen me in ages. Most of the time I spend a lot of time with these people and one reason or another I suddenly will stop being there with them.

I am just that kind of person. I am very straightforward when it comes to stating my opinion. But in return I would like others to do the same. I just hate to see people who lie, cheat and back stab right in front of my eyes. I do have to admit that from time to time i do my fair share of those things and I'm not proud of it. Okay I sound like I'm contradicting a bit so I'll alter it some what. You can do all that crap to/about me but just never let me find out. Let me warn you though, I know it when you're lying.

Moving on, when you see me around and I look like I'm not in the mood, please just don't piss me off. I'm really not in the mood to entertain anything silly that anyone does. So please, that is all I'm asking for. I'm just not myself at the moment and would hate to cause a scene as I now I will.

When we first meet we were just strangers;When we break up we become strangers, again.

IM BACK!!

I know its been a while but i'm finally back on my blog. Its been a good year or so since the last post so obviously a lot has changed since then. However, overall I would say i'm still stuck at square one. Anyways, back too why i'm starting too write again. There has always been a burden too keep how I feel inside me. I do for most of the time keep it in for as long as I can but as of right now I feel its best for me too let it all out in a space I know will be there when needed.

Its not something I tell anyone but here goes nothing. I'm in love. There is no doubt about it. The problem is however I can't show it too you unless I can get just a few moments alone with you. Its just something I needed too get of my chest. She is not the same person as I've mentioned before. She is the only person which I can say was love at first sight. On that day I knew who she was but that was the first time I saw her in person. I knew at that point that we will cross paths one way or another and I'm glad that I became a reality.

But I can't wait forever for the opportunity to come. I'm at a crossroads right now. To pursue someone or to pursue something? Both would be nice but I have to pick one. By the way, the something is to open a restaurant by the end of the year. At only 20 I find that its no excuse to do nothing in life. I have to find a way to make an impact before I die and this is a good place to start.

The last few weeks have been like an emotional roller coaster and I hope things get better as exams draw near. It doesn't have to be great but I just hope it won't be bad. My bros have been helping me get through all this. Even though I did not mention anything to them but its just their company which I need to get my minds of things. Well this is a start. Have to make blogging a routine again.

All this pain will go away if I have you