haihh.. wat do u do when u have hit rock bottom?? my solution was nothing.. i have nt done anithin productive since that 1 fine day.. its like everything slowly started 2 fall apart while i was buzy running after u.. i noe that if i reach the finish line i will b ok bt wat if i never reach that far???
things have changed these past few years.. all hopes n dreams have vanished.. all targets n goals have been shoved in a locked drawer wif no key.. my dream of LSE faded after last year.. my hope of passing CAT let alone ACCA has just dissapear into thin air.. now im stuck wif nothing.. my future is becoming more uncertain.. a fallback plan has yet been given consideration n i dont think i can pass even T7..
i have started back old habits.. unhealthy habits that i noe will clowly make it worse.. even new habits start 2 pollute my mind which was once calm n collected.. i cant last a day without a stick n i get cranky if i take the pills.. i would never have imagined being like this.. all of this has 2 end soon..
class has lately been optional.. even exams have fealt like a waste of time.. college is just a place 2 run away from ppl at home hu think im doing well till my genuis siblings start telling them bout wats goin on in my college.. just but out n myob..
goin out 4 midnite movies n having a drink till 4 in the morning seems like a daily routine.. n subsequently waking up at 12pm for an 8am class.. fb is just wasting my time the ps3 is just taking away my sleep n watching old movies via astro max where i practically memorize the script is getting old..
oh yeah.. i barely have money 2 do things i enjoy anymore.. wat a waste doing all this.. n all this started bcos i wont let go.. i wish i could bt i cant.. i need u.. now more than ever.. if nt 1 day there will b no 2moro......
things have changed these past few years.. all hopes n dreams have vanished.. all targets n goals have been shoved in a locked drawer wif no key.. my dream of LSE faded after last year.. my hope of passing CAT let alone ACCA has just dissapear into thin air.. now im stuck wif nothing.. my future is becoming more uncertain.. a fallback plan has yet been given consideration n i dont think i can pass even T7..
i have started back old habits.. unhealthy habits that i noe will clowly make it worse.. even new habits start 2 pollute my mind which was once calm n collected.. i cant last a day without a stick n i get cranky if i take the pills.. i would never have imagined being like this.. all of this has 2 end soon..
class has lately been optional.. even exams have fealt like a waste of time.. college is just a place 2 run away from ppl at home hu think im doing well till my genuis siblings start telling them bout wats goin on in my college.. just but out n myob..
goin out 4 midnite movies n having a drink till 4 in the morning seems like a daily routine.. n subsequently waking up at 12pm for an 8am class.. fb is just wasting my time the ps3 is just taking away my sleep n watching old movies via astro max where i practically memorize the script is getting old..
oh yeah.. i barely have money 2 do things i enjoy anymore.. wat a waste doing all this.. n all this started bcos i wont let go.. i wish i could bt i cant.. i need u.. now more than ever.. if nt 1 day there will b no 2moro......
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